A Wannabe Writer, Burgers, and a Paintbrush

I sat down tonight to write. It was going to be an exercise in writing fiction, using my imagination to write from story prompts. First, I wanted to start with one paragraph, then multiple paragraphs, then chapters, etc.

It seems that my imagination is not deep enough to write anything interesting enough to read. My memory is not good enough to write cool stories about my childhood. My vocabulary is lacking depth, so my writing seems simplistic and probably boring.

A blogger needs to blog. A writer needs to write. I am not going to give up, but it may take me a long time to get this blog and/or story writing to a place that is worth reading. Until then, I guess I will journal about my days….

Thursdays are my favorite days of the week at work. It is the slowest day of the week, and, I get off work at 12:30pm and have half of the day to enjoy hanging out at home with my DH or working on a project or writing or whatever I want.

Climbing into the pickup after work where my husband was sitting and waiting for me, I smiled and asked him what he wanted to do today. The click of my seatbelt barely registered. We drove the short distance to Five Guys for lunch, talking all the way.

The juice dripping down our hands and onto the burger wrappers in front of us was proof of the deliciousness of the dill pickle slices, lettuce, tomatoes, mayo, mustard, and ketchup, loaded atop the melted cheese on the freshly grilled burger patty between the two halves of a toasted bun. The stack of napkins given to us with our lunch in the bag, was much needed, and should have been our first clue about how messy and delicious the meal would be.

The freshly cooked fries made from Idaho potatoes, grown in the next county over, are my favorite. Blowing on the fries to cool them before dunking them in the fry sauce (it’s an Idaho and Utah thing) gives a false sense of security that I would still be able to taste after slowly lowering the long fry-sauce-covered fry carefully into my mouth, while leaning my face over the table, hoping not to drip onto my t-shirt or jeans. “OUCH!” Nope, still hot. Burnt taste buds are the worst! The remainder of my meal did not seem to have much flavor. 😉

Opening the driver’s side door for me, leaning in, and whispering, “Your chariot awaits,” my DH always brings a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart.

“Thank you, My Darling,” I often reply.

He lovingly closes the door and walks around to the passenger side. I start the engine. I hear the click of his seat buckle. And, we are off.

Arriving home a short time later, we decided to get a jump on our weekend project of painting the master bath and bedroom. The frameless mirror we removed from the wall above the sinks and countertop is heavy. I walked backwards, hoping not to trip, as we slowly and gently carried it to the front bedroom where it will rest until the painting is complete. The bathroom appears smaller and feels bare from the missing lights, light switch and outlet covers, and toilet tank, but is prepped for the “cutting in” to begin tomorrow.

My DH will start with the brush work while I am at work. Then, when I get home tomorrow evening, I will roll the paint on the walls. It is my favorite. And, it should go quickly with the 14-inch roller I use. I will paint all I can in the two hours we will have between the time I arrive home from work and the time we leave for Mom and Dad’s house for our weekly “Friday Night Card Night.”

The End of a Week Long Vacation

Daily writing prompt
What notable things happened today?

At home. My vacation was spent at home. Should have been spent in northern Idaho, but my DH and I decided to stay home and repaint the interior main floor of our home. It took six half-days to paint the kitchen, dining, living room, hall bath, hallway, laundry room, and the walls along the stairs. As boring as that sounds, it feels so good to be at day six, today, and note all that we accomplished together.

While working side by side, this week, we also took the time to get to know each other better (even after 37 years of marriage) by asking one another thought provoking questions. I even learned a few things about home maintenance, something my DH has always taken care of.

After a long week of hard work, we are looking forward to a fun weekend of family time celebrating my dad for Father’s Day. He is 83 years old. Any reason to celebrate and spend time with him and my mom (80 years old) is a notable gift, for sure.

Time

I have been thinking about time and the question, “What does it mean to waste time?”

I was pondering this question while looking at the flowers in my garden. They don’t do anything with time, except grow, and maybe blow in the wind from time to time. What is their purpose? Are the wasting time? They just grow, become a beautiful flower, then die. Is that a waste of time? Well, no. They are for our enjoyment. They are to add beauty and some provide pollen for the bees.

A weed was poking it’s head out between the flowers. What is it’s purpose? Is it wasting time? It grows, becomes a weed, then dies. Is that a waste of time? They are not for our enjoyment. In fact, gardeners do all they can to rid those weeds from their beautiful yards and gardens.

What about us? We people? What is considered time wasted? Watching TV? Gaming? Scrolling through Facebook or TikTok? Reading? Writing? Photography? Quilting? Baking desserts? Napping? Working? Camping? Fishing? Hunting?

Is the idea of wasting time subjective? Or are there things that are specifically under the category of wasting time?

Wikipedia says the following:

Wasting Time may refer to:

  • Idleness, a lack of motion or energy
  • Goofing off, engaging in an idle pastime while neglecting obligations
  • Procrastination, avoidance of doing a task
  • Running out the clock, in sports, stalling or playing with the purpose of allowing time to expire
  • Time sink, an activity, especially one seen as wasteful, that consumes a significant amount of time

In my opinion, it depends….

Idleness could be wasting time due to lack of motion or energy. But, what if I am resting after more than an hour of mowing the lawn and bagging the grass?

Goofing off could be wasting time due if one is neglecting obligations. But, what if I am goofing off with my grandchildren whom I have not seen for several months, yet the dishes are sitting in the sink and the laundry needs folded?

You get the idea.

Doing anything that is productive, building relationships (ex from above: goofing off with grandchildren), increasing knowledge, creating, service to others, etc., is good use of time, would you agree? It is the “time sink” activities that are stealing time from doing more productive things in life.

I guess the questions I want to start asking myself when I am wondering if I am wasting time are: Does my body need the rest? How is this activity going to help my future? Am I learning anything or just being fed whatever comes down “the scroll” so-to-speak? Am I leaving behind anything meaningful for my family (my stories of my life and/or life experiences, family history, etc.)?

Do I want to be a flower or a weed? At the very least, I want to be a positive influence on those around me. How can I do that if I am wasting time?

Anyway, food for thought. 🙂

Counseling

What is the purpose? What good does it serve? Will it make any difference? It won’t change anything. Should it change anything? Or just change how I see things?

I have an appointment shortly. I have been wondering what to say, how to start, where to begin. I’ve asked myself what I want to accomplish with counseling. I want to be me. I want to figure out who I am. What do I want out of life? Am I happy? Am I going through motions? What does true joy feel like? I know what I believe long-lasting happiness is. Can we have joy now? Or do we need to wait for some time in the future?

Lots of questions and pondering. So, while I wait, this gives me a few minutes to write a blog post about asparagus. Yep! Asparagus!

My memories of Memorial Day weekend as a child are of my parents, siblings and grandparents driving to the cemeteries to pay respects to our great-grandparents and other family members who have passed on, and stopping along the way home to hunt asparagus on the ditch bank along the roadway. It is springtime, so the grassy ditch banks are always lush green, which made spying the asparagus a bit challenging, but did not deter us from finding and picking enough for Grandma to make a pot of her delicious cream of asparagus soup.

This is a family tradition. One I was so excited to share again this year! So, on Saturday of Memorial Day weekend, while my brother’s traditional rotisserie pork roast was cooking in the grill, my sister and niece and I drove to our secret ditch bank to pick some asparagus for soup with dinner. Only to discover much of it had been picked. But, we persisted in walking the ditch bank and searching for those hidden gems missed by the previous hunters. Our persistence paid off, and we took two large handfuls home.

There wasn’t time to make the soup for dinner, so I said I would make a pot of soup for mom and dad on Sunday. My dad was less than enthusiastic. Come to find out, my dad only ate it because his mom made it. It was ok, but not his favorite. My mom doesn’t like it at all. Neither does my sister or her family. Nor does my brother. What?!! All these years!! I had no idea!! I always felt like asparagus soup on Memorial Day tied our family together…the living to those who had passed on!!

Well, I made the pot of soup for my husband and six-year-old grandson. We ate all but half of a bowl of that deliciousness! My extended family may not like the soup, but Memorial Day weekend, for me, will always be synonymous with asparagus hunting, making soup, and family time. Both, on this side of heaven, and the other!

In My Own Words: The Big Flood

My DH said my blogs should be written in my own words, rather than written with the help to ChatGPT. So, you just get me and my own words on my blog. Sorry for your bad luck! 😉

Last evening after I returned home from a long day at work, it began to rain. From our kitchen window, I could see the rain change from hard rain, to downpour to raining in SHEETS of water, sideways! I met my husband in the front room to watch out the window to view the street in front of our house. The wind was blowing hard as the rain turned to hail and new spring leaves started blowing off of the trees in the neighborhood. It was a crazy unusual spring storm.

Our neighbor across the street and couple of houses down from us had flooding in their basement. A coworker showed me a short video she took of a passing car driving through the “river” that used to be the road in front of her house. There was so much water that when the car drove through, it caused waves to roll up onto my coworker’s driveway and sidewalk toward her front door. The water stopped about 1 foot from a window well to her basement. She was fortunate the rain slowed when it did. The water did not get into her house. We were fortunate as well. Our basement is dry. No flooding. I heard stories of lots of flooded basements around town. My heart goes out to them.

This morning, on my way to work, I could see small pockets of hail piled up in corners, near fences and houses. There were leaves plastered to cars, fences, and houses. Our little neighborhood park and storm field were filled with water. They looked like beautiful still lakes where the kids usually play. It was oddly beautiful.

New Neighborhood Lake 😉

The Day I Pushed the Gear Shifter Through the Floor: A Driver’s Ed Tale

Turning 14 was an exciting milestone for me, not because it symbolized freedom or escapades, but because I could finally enroll in Driver’s Ed. My love for driving began long before I was legally allowed behind the wheel. It all started with a memorable experience in my grandpa’s pickup truck, where I got my first taste of what it was like to take control of a vehicle. Little did I know that my journey through Driver’s Ed would be filled with unexpected surprises, including one unforgettable mishap.

Behind one of the local high schools, there was a driver’s course equipped with a tower and a microphone. The setup allowed the instructor to watch and guide us as we navigated through various driving scenarios. It was an exhilarating experience to be entrusted with a car and have the chance to demonstrate my driving skills. However, there was one fateful day that would forever be etched in my memory.

My driving partner and I were eagerly waiting for our turn in the VW Rabbit, a car equipped with a standard transmission. The anticipation was building as we prepared ourselves to handle the challenges of driving a manual vehicle. My partner took the wheel first, but to our dismay, the stick shift refused to go into gear. Confused, we tried every possible technique to engage reverse, but the shifter seemed stubbornly immovable.

With our hopes dwindling, the instructor decided to intervene. He sat behind the wheel, attempting to resolve the gear-shifting predicament. That’s when one of the onlookers noticed something peculiar under the car. Pointing in disbelief, he exclaimed, “What is that?” To our sheer embarrassment, it turned out that we had unwittingly pushed the gear shifter right through the floor of the car! Our jaws dropped, and we couldn’t believe what we had done.

Needless to say, our mishap quickly became the talk of Driver’s Ed. For years afterward, I found myself at the center of amusing anecdotes and conversations among students. Even long after completing the course, I would encounter new students asking if I was the one responsible for pushing the gear shifter through the floor of the infamous Rabbit. Sheepishly, I admitted my involvement, forever linked to that comical incident.

Despite the embarrassing ordeal, I managed to persevere and successfully complete Driver’s Ed. I obtained my driver’s license and was finally ready to hit the road independently. Running errands for my parents became an exciting excuse to indulge in my love for driving. Throughout my life, I have racked up countless miles behind the wheel, fortunate enough to have never been involved in an accident.

That day in Driver’s Ed, when my driving partner and I inadvertently pushed the gear shifter through the floor of the VW Rabbit, was a moment of both humiliation and hilarity. It serves as a reminder that even in the face of embarrassing mishaps, it’s important to keep going and maintain a sense of humor. Despite the unforgettable incident, my passion for driving remains unwavering. I cherish every second spent on the road, appreciating the joy and freedom that driving brings.

Mother’s Day

Today is Mother’s Day. I spent the afternoon with my 80-year-old mom and my 83-year-old dad, yesterday, to celebrate my mom. We had a good afternoon visiting, eating dinner, then playing pinochle. We already played Friday night, but since we were there Saturday and there was time after dinner, my dad offered the opportunity for us to play again, so maybe the women could win a game. I will share another post about our pinochle nights, which will bring more understanding, but just know it is played women against men in our family. And, it was a good thing we played Saturday because the women finally won! The losing streak is over!

Today, my husband and I went to church. The speakers in Sacrament Meeting shared uplifting messages about women, moms, and our Savior Jesus Christ. They were wonderful talks that did not leave me feeling guilty for not being a good enough mother.

After Sacrament Meeting, we had the Women’s Meeting (called Relief Society). There was a beautiful charcuterie brunch prepared for us. We fed our bodies while the Relief Society Presidency filled our souls with uplifting words about the importance of women, that we are all needed, that our Savior knows the challenges we are dealing with in life, that He loves us, that we are not alone, that we are Daughters of Heavenly Parents, who love us. It Ended with a video of a man who wished he would have appreciated his mother more when he was younger. Now that he was older he understood all of the sacrifice of time and effort and love she showed him.

I am so grateful for my mom. But, also, all of those women who have “mothered” me in my lifetime. Those who have been my teachers, kind neighbors, friends, co-workers who cared, sisters in the gospel, etc. It takes a village. And, particularly today, Mother’s Day, I am grateful for the village of women who have been there to “mother” me when I needed it.

Park Bench

Something about a park bench

There is something about a park bench outdoors that can change a “down-in-the-dumps” kind of feeling to a feeling of appreciation for sunshine, blue sky, and a cool breeze. What a great smile!

Community Park is a great place to walk. Some of the people we saw this morning were young moms and dads pushing babies in strollers, two boys on bicycles racing down the hill, couples walking for exercise, and a young lady out walking three dogs together. Dog walker, maybe?

There is a place on one end of the park where a grove of aspen trees was planted several years ago. It is my favorite part of the park. It is a peaceful and quiet place to sit and ponder. Aspens trees are some of my favorites!

To Ride or Not to Ride?

That was the question that I asked myself for nearly an hour tonight before finally decided to go for a ride. My bicycle is over 25 years old. But I like it! So, I keep riding it. My husband and I bought the family bicycles when our kids were younger, so we could ride the nearby trail. We lived in the upper Midwest. The joke there was that the mosquitoes were the state bird. Riding on that trail made me a believer! Riding in the heat and humidity was not my favorite, then add the mosquitos to the mix, and I really was not a fan. We live in a western state now, so the humidity is not high, and the temperatures are much more comfortable for riding.

My sister lives in the same subdivision as I do, which is my great fortune. We get along well and enjoy riding bikes and going for walks in the neighborhood. Tonight, she and her husband went for a ride with me. It was a short ride, only about a mile or two, but enough to get out and enjoy the fresh evening air. I love it!

My only beef is the bike seat. Why does it have to be so small? I am not a small person. The lower half of my body seems to wrap itself right around the seat. Sometimes, I think people wonder if there is even a seat on the bike when I am riding.

“Look at that! She is riding her bike, but where is the seat?”

“My body swallowed it, OK?? Sheesh!” Oh goodness! The price we pay for exercising! 🙂

The Campfire

Camping is one of my favorite childhood memories. My mind remembers the sounds, smells and feeling of warmth from the campfire. It was so calming, just sitting around the campfire with my family, listening to stories, mesmerized by the dancing flames of the fire at night. Memories of roasting marshmallows and the ooey gooey-ness of the center dripping onto the ground. The challenge was always to capture all of it and eat it without burning my fingers or tongue in the process. By the way, I don’t like my marshmallows burnt!

Check out this entry on my other blog. A poem about this very subject.

Poetry

Alma Chapter 30

Alma Chapter 30 in the Book of Mormon is an interesting chapter about believers living 76 to 74 years B.C., who “observed to keep the commandments of the Lord” and they lived in continual peace throughout the land for over a year. They had no disturbance and continual peace. (Wouldn’t that be a great place to live?!)

Along came Korihor, anti-Christ. There was no law against another’s belief, or non-belief as the case may be. This man came in and started preaching that there should be no Christ. He said they, the believers, were bound down by foolish and vain hope. He mocked their beliefs and knocked their prophecies as foolish traditions of their fathers rather than prophecies handed down by holy prophets.

He says in vs 15: He says “…ye cannot know of things which ye do not see; therefore ye cannot know that there shall be a Christ.”

So, Korihor leads the hearts of some astray with his ramblings about there being no proof of a God, and that there are no prophecies that Christ was going to be there. He accused Alma and the people of glutting themselves upon the labors of their people. Which in vs. 32 Alma clearly rebuts.

Then Alma asks Korihor why he is gong about telling the people there is no God. He asked for what evidence Korihor had that there is no God or that Christ would not come. He said he thinks Korihor really is a believer but that the devil had power over him.

And there it is. Verse 43: Korihor says to Alma: “If thou wilt show me a sign, that I may be convinced that there is a God, yea, show unto me that he hath power, and then will I be convinced of the truth of thy words.

Verses 44 and 45: Alma says Korihor has had signs enough and asked if he will temp God. He said he has the testimony of all his brethren and the holy prophets. He told him the scriptures denote there is a God. The earth and all things upon it, the motion of the earth and all the planets witness there is a Supreme Creator. Alma asked if he would deny all of the believers and their testimonies. Korihor said he would deny, unless Alma could show him a sign. (I would add here: Be careful what you ask for….)

Alma warned Korihor that if he denied God again, “…God shall smite thee, that thou shalt become dumb, that thou shalt never open thy mouth any more, that thou shalt not deceive this people any more.”

Korihor said he did not deny the existence of a God, but he did not believe that there is a God and that if he did not show him a sign, he would not believe.

So, Alma gave him a sign. Korihor was struck dumb, the he could not speak. He wrote a note to Alma saying he knew that nothing but the power of God could bring this upon him. He said he always knew there was a God, but the devil deceived him. Korihor asked that the curse be removed. Alma prayed, but the curse was not taken off.

Korihor had to go from house to house begging for his food. Soon, thereafter, he was trodden down and killed.

In vs 60, last verse of that chapter, Alma says about half way down the verse: “…and thus we see that the devil will not support his children at the last day, but doeth speedily drag them down to hell.”

So, what I get from this chapter is we already have signs, we don’t need to seek for more. And if one is “fortunate” enough to be given another sign, he might not like it. Faith comes before the signs for most. Here is an example of a guy who had prophets around him, believers and their experiences and testimonies, but he chose not to believe on their experiences, but he wanted his own sign.

Sometimes, it is better for us to learn from others, accept their testimonies, and utilize a particle of faith before we worry about signs. Also, we see that he was wrong about the prophecies. Christ did come.

What to Write?

Viewing this blank screen in front of me can sometimes be overwhelming. What do I write about? There are endless things one could write.

Today, I have a feeling to anxiousness. My thoughts are all over the place and I can’t seem to reel them in and focus on only one. This post may be full of ramblings for the reader, you, to sort out. But, it will be real. It will be me. If you never experience this way of thinking, then you are fortunate!

Mornings are my jive. I love mornings. Oftentimes, my thoughts about mornings are that five days of the week, my mornings are lost because they are spent at work. Work gets my best self, my most productive self, my most awake self. Lucky work. Weekends, though? Those are mine and my family’s. This morning, I will spend it writing.

Saturday mornings take me back to childhood when my mom could be seen in the living room opening the drapes covering our large picture window to the backyard view. Our house was small, just under 1100 square feet, built on a slab foundation, and our view was not majestic. The view took in our red-fenced yard and six or seven houses surrounding ours in the neighborhood. My mom was not bothered by the view. She was interested in the sunshine pouring through that window when the drapes were open. I could stare for long periods of time at the dust dancing in the air visible only when the suns rays hit just right. OH! To be like that dust, dancing. Floating freely. Not a care in the world. My mom’s happy voice singing “Let the sunshine in….” always set the tone for the day.

Saturdays were great days. The day started with cartoons and then breakfast. We did not eat breakfast in the living room. We ate our meals together at the table in the dining area, which was open and connected to the living room. Breakfast was either cereal or toast or eggs and toast, and sometimes we had pancakes, eggs, and bacon or sausage. I can smell the maple syrup just thinking about it!

If it was a cleaning day, which oftentimes, Saturdays were, My mom and sister and brother and I would work together inside to clean the house, while dad was busy doing the outside work of mowing the lawn or washing the cars, in the summer. The screen door to the front sidewalk and yard was opening and closing constantly throughout the day as we would find reasons to “escape” our housework in the inside for just a few minutes. Our poor mother. She never did yell at us though. Not once. She was patient and kind and very caring as we worked a little and played a lot.

When the cleaning was done inside (which did not really take all that long because the house was not huge) we could go outside and help dad or play. I loved helping wash the car and pickup. The pickup was big and not as easy to clean as the car, but it was fun to help with either one. My dad was somewhat particular. He liked to do a job and do it right. His mom was very clean and taught her children to be that way. So, cleaning the car meant cleaning the door jams, cleaning the air vents – one lever at a time, cleaning out the ashtrays – not simply dumping the ashes (so glad my dad quit smoking), etc.

Cleaning the car meant waxing the finish. Dad would pull the car up on the lawn under the shade tree so it would be cooler while cleaning, also so the wax would not get so hot on the finish. I remember the feel of using the wax pad to swipe across the wax tub to pick up enough wax to cover as much area as possible. Circles and circles and circles. This was the way to put the wax on the car. Circle on with the wax pad. Circle off with the clean dry cloth. After I would do the best I could to clean the wax off, Dad would come along behind and get the areas I missed. I loved to see those vehicles shine when dad drove them off the lawn into the sunshine. Beautiful!

Mom and Dad taught us that hard work pays off. And, that hard work can be fun. And that attitude is everything.

Look at that! I was able to focus on one memory. A flood of other memories came rushing to my mind, so I wrote a list of those. I will share memories, ongoing.