Possessions

What would you do if you lost all your possessions?

Can you smell the buttery aroma?

Popcorn is a favorite snack of mine. The smell of popcorn makes me want to watch 48-Hours, the True Crime Show. And, eating pistachios makes me think of The People’s Court. My husband and I went through a phase of popping popcorn and watching 48-Hours together weekly. When I was younger, I would watch The People’s Court, with Judge Joseph Wapner while shelling and snacking on pistachios. Those smells and tastes take me right back to those activities. Smells, sounds, music… all of it is connected to various memories in my life.

If I lost all of my possessions, I would feel sad about the loss of irreplaceable possessions, such as photos and journals. I would feel burdened by the need to replace some of the most important items, like birth certificates, SS cards, etc. Which reminds me, I was going to get a fireproof safe for those items. That needs to move to the top of the priority list of things to do this month. Good thing this was one of the writing prompt questions this month! If my husband reads this, maybe he will help remind us to purchase the fireproof safe for our important documents.

I have known people who have lost all of their possessions. My dad and his siblings when they were children returned from watching a movie at the “show house” only to find their house on fire. It was a total loss. Besides the entire family, thankfully, only a few possessions, including the family bible and several photographs, survived the fire. It was a difficult time for them. Grandma and Grandpa did not have insurance on the house, so they did not have the money to rebuild. Grandpa sold the land and they moved in with family in another town where they could make a fresh start.

As a child, my husband lived through the loss of their family home. It was a frightening night with a little humorous side story. His mom told him to hurry back to his room to wake up his brother, grab their coats and shoes, and run back her second-story bedroom where they would climb out onto the roof area through the window. That is not what he heard. He and his brother grabbed their COMBS and their shoes. They ran as fast as they could to their parents’ room and scurried out the window where the firetrucks began to arrive and helped them off the roof, just as the flames were beginning to dance around the roof’s edge. This was just before Christmas, which meant cold temperatures. My husband and his brother were a couple of very chilly boys with just their COMBS and their shoes and nothing over their pajamas to keep them warm on that awful winter night. They are lucky they survived the fire. Fortunately, his parents had insurance on the house, so they were able to rebuild.

Speaking of smell being connected to a memory. Both my husband and my dad said the smell of a burning house is not something you soon forget and are easily reminded of every time you smell smoke. I am grateful they are here and able to be triggeed by that memory.

My friend came home from work to find her home had been robbed. Anything of value was taken. In broad daylight. She felt violated because a stranger had been in her home rummaging through her things. It took a while for her to feel peaceful in her own home.

Possessions are replaceable, for the most part. Broken hearts heal. People are built to be resiliant.

Come Listen to a Prophet’s Voice Saturday and Sunday

Autumn Reflections

This weekend is my favorite autumn weekend. My favorite weekend comes around only twice each year, once in the spring and once in the fall. We have the opportunity to listen to the voice of our prophet and apostles. Every time I listen to and/or watch the semi-annual conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I feel the truth of the words of our leaders. Faith is strengthened, the feeling of peace increases, and a renewed desire and commitment to be a better person fills my heart. I expect tomorrow will be no different.

As I listen to the words of our prophet and apostles this weekend, I will have a few thoughts/questions on my mind that I hope to find information and answers to. It is my belief that if one approaches conference prepared ahead of time with thoughts about particular concerns, or questions they have on their mind, the thoughts shared by the speakers at conference have more purpose and depth of meaning. My faith has really been tested this past year and I hope to find comfort and solace in the words that are spoken this weekend.

A few of the subjects on my mind are: Passing judgment; mercy; pure love of Christ; repentance; forgiveness; Christ’s Atonement; divine nature/potential; individual worth-the worth of my soul at my ripening age; service to others when my time is so scarce/limited, and how to become more like Christ. How do I show him I want to Come Unto Him? What are the values I want in my life? What do I value? I will have my journal out to write the impressions I receive to my heart and mind while being tuned in to the words of our leaders.

These and other self-reflective questions are good to ask ourselves twice a year to recommit to our life’s goals. Or to reset our goals to help us achieve the things we want or need to achieve.

I like to reset every couple of years. It brings my life purpose and meaning. Check out the link for the broadcast at: ChurchofJesusChrist.org and have a fabulous weekend!

VP Debate

What skill would you like to learn?

How to handle an unfair situation like what is taking place on CBS tonight. 😉 These moderators are anything but unbiased. What a joke! What ever happened to unbiased journalism? 

One of those men pretends to care for the American people. The other one really does. Common sense makes sense!

One is honest about when he was wrong and why he changed his mind, and the other can’t honestly answer a straight question about his lies.

My senses say the man whose face is turning red is not the most honest man. He and his insincerity raises concern. The same way as it is concerning when a presidential nominee (his running mate) avoids interviews.

How can I vote for a presidential nominee who is not comfortable with spontaneous interviews and questions? She might eat “no” for breakfast, but she is gonna get a “no” at the voting booth from me because if she can’t sit in the hot seat at Fox News, how can I trust that she can handle the hot seat at the Whitehouse?

Just my thoughts.

God Knows…

Her
Happy childhood innocence.

Her
Desire to live life to the fullest.

Her
Insatiable curiosity.

Her
Naivete.

Her
Regretful choices.

Her
Eyes, opened to the consequences.

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Heart, filled with love and grief.

Her
Hidden pain, so deep.

Her
Desire to sleep… forever.

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Determination to live.

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Willingness to align her will to His.

Her
Faith, deep down, is unbreakable.

God knows HER!
And He loves her! Mightily!

Virtual Fulfillment?

In what ways does hard work make you feel fulfilled?

I despise (maybe too strong of a word… “dislike” is better) laziness. It is sad to see the potential of loved ones slip away in place of laziness.

There is a difference between disorganization and pure laziness. A person’s house can be rather sloppy and disorganized, but the person is out doing things, getting an education or working or creating.

Also, some of the hardest working people I know have physical disabilities. If they are limited in their abilities, it does not necessarily mean they don’t work hard. It may mean their hard work looks different from a well-abled adult.

What is laziness? Unwilling to work or use energy. Idleness. Laziness kills ambition.

What is Ambition? A strong desire to do or to achieve something, typically requiring determination and hard work.

I’ve often wondered where gaming fits in. If one is only gaming for fun and not productive in any other way, is that laziness? Or idleness? Or is their ability to achieve levels in games considered productivity?

Can a person truly be fulfilled if the efforts and achievements only benefit them in a virtual world? Or does real fulfillment come only when making a difference through hard work in reality? 🤔

IMO the latter is true. It feels good to work hard to accomplish a goal or complete a project, especially when serving someone in need.

That is not to say there is not a time for rest and relaxation, but that is for another blog post.

Inspired by Bloggers

Before this blog was a reality, while still in the planning stages, someone asked me if I ever read blogs. That was a great question! My answer was no. I mean, I had read a few blogs but did not really follow any or read any blogs regularly other than news blogs. I remember asking myself if I am qualified to start a blog if I don’t really read them? Haha!

Now I read blogs regularly, follow several blogs, I am inspired by many, and I live vicariously through some of your stories and experiences. I appreciate the time and effort it takes for you to blog your thoughts and experiences.

Live, Love, Grow

Today was an interesting step in our aging process. My husband’s knee surgeon with whom my husband had a six-week follow-up appointment said that we are all dying. It is a part of life. We need to make the best of life at each stage. And, then he wrote a prescription for a jazzy scooter for my husband, along with a prescription for continued PT so he can keep what strength he does have and slow the process of weakening over time.

My husband’s numerous medical challenges have never stopped him from working hard to keep moving with as limited assistance as possible. He is an inspiration for never giving up or giving in. To him, a jazzy scooter feels like a step backward.

I do not see it that way. From my viewpoint, nothing has changed, except it will increase his level of safety when we are going to events, sightseeing, or on trips. It will expand the distance he can safely go and do things around the neighborhood and a greater opportunity to visit with friends and neighbors without someone necessarily needing to be there to push him in his wheelchair. 

Life is not without its difficulties, and it may not always be comfortable, but with adversity comes growth. Someone said once that there is no comfort in the growth zone and no growth in the comfort zone. So, if we, as adults, are all dying anyway, we might as well make the best of it!

Little League Soccer :)

What things give you energy?

I’m sitting here this morning with my huband, mom, and daughter, watching my grandson and his teammates chase the soccer ball from one end of the field to the other. The ball slices through the cool crisp air until another young set of legs stops its drive. It brings a smile to my face and joy to my heart to see my grandson’s face light up every time his foot connects with the ball. Their team might be scoreless, but they sure are having fun! Cheering gives me energy.

Empty

Over the past ten years, music is what we have used to help spirits go home by the thousands at a time. Why? Because everyone has a song, a melody, or a hymn that touches their soul. Something from their childhood. Their first love. Their first lost. Music, is a part of us. Music, IS […]

Empty

This puts my thoughts into words beautifully.

Sad Songs Make Me Cry

What would your life be like without music?

Sometimes, on sad days, I like to cry it out by listening to sad songs. One of my favorite sad songs is “Tears in Heaven” by Eric Clapton.

When I’m cleaning, I like to listen to Miranda Lambert songs. “Little Red Wagon” is a fun one.

It is so cool how songs can take you right back to a place in time every time you hear certain songs. Madonna songs take me back to high school. Journey takes me back to dating years.  “We’ve Only Just Begun” by The Carpenters was sung at my wedding.

Can you imagine weddings without music? Or funerals without music? Or Dancing With the Stars? Haha! Nope!

Music and lyrics speak to our hearts and souls like nothing else can!

Turn That Frown Upside Down

This morning I woke up feeling depressed. It is a feeling like no other. I won’t go into details about how I felt, buy I am blessed to have a husband who cares enough to sit right there and listen to my unreasonable rantings.

My father died in January, but I feel I am just now truly mourning his death… and my mom’s sadness. The loss of a loved one who is such a “larger than life” type of personality really leaves a huge hole of emptiness in the lives of those left behind.

The medication I was taking for anxiety and depression made me feel “numb” to the loss of my dad. The benefit was that I could read the life sketch at my dad’s funeral without tears. People complemented me on how “strong” I was to do that without crying. I didn’t feel strong. I felt numb. I have made some choices since then, that I wonder if I would have made had I not been on that medication. Maybe. But, I can’t help but wonder. I made decisions that go against my values and who I am at my core.

So… three months ago I stopped taking the medication so I could feel “all the feels.” They are strong feelings. Mostly negative. There is an underlying sadness in my life most of the time, which, at times manifests as anger/irritation. I am definitely mourning my father’s loss. Among all of the things I miss, a couple of things really stand out. I miss his common-sense approach to life and his down-to-earth advice.

I also feel deep regret for the choices I made recently that are not representative of who I am. Feelings of regret are the worst. I keep asking myself WHY? Rebelliousness? Midlife crisis? Repressed mourning? Not sure, but regret adds to feelings of deep remorse, unworthiness, anger, frustration, depression, etc. “All the feels.”

So, anyway, this morning I woke up feeling deeply depressed. So, so, very sad. My husband encouraged me to go for a walk with him. After some prompting, I agreed and we went for a walk around the river’s edge. It was a beautiful warm summer morning. The walking and talking with my husband was a much needed distraction and very helpful in changing my feelings. I enjoy the outdoors and the beauty along the river. I have learned it is good to get moving when feeling down. The fresh air was fabulous! I took some pictures along the way. Enjoy!

This brought an immediate smile to my face and a curiosity to my mind. What were they discussing? What is their life’s story?
Enjoying the shade before crossing over the river to walk the other side.
If walls of old buildings could talk….
Smiles  > Frowns

Keep a Journal

Daily writing prompt
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.

Time moves so fast. And your memory fades over time. The details of your life, over time, become less and less easy to recall. One of my friends became an author. She has kept a journal her entire life, which was very helpful to her when she wrote her first book. I just wish I had kept a record of all of our family experiences when our children were young. It would be fun to share those memories with our adult daughters and our grandchildren now. Also, it would be good to have something in writing to solve disputes when my husband and I are discussing past experiences from our separate perspectives and aging memories. Yep. Keep a journal! 🙂