Unexpected Drive

Today, I accepted my second Amazon Flex block ever. It was a 4-hour block that paid $95. When my husband and I pulled into the lane as directed in the outdoor Amazon loading dock, I was happy to see only two bins of packages for me to deliver today. I proceeded to scan and load the packages into my car, Olive. (She is little and black, so her name is perfect! And, did I mention she gets 45mpg in town? 37mpg on the highway? Yes!) 

As I started sorting the envelopes into the plastic tote to keep them from getting lost amongst the boxes, I noticed one was addressed to a lady in Inkom and one in Pocatello. Turns out that all of the packages were going to Pocatello or Inkom. What!? I had to drive an hour before I could even start delivering?! That was unexpected. I thought all of the deliveries I would be doing as a flex driver would be local. I wasn’t so sure it was worth the money.

Especially when at one of the last stops, I had a huge scare… my first run-in with not just one, but two huge dogs! Rottweilers? Mastiffs? One of each? I am not sure, but they each had a bark like they could take me down and eat me in one gulp! Maybe two or three.

I had walked warily past the beware of dogs sign, up the steps, and onto the large deck toward the front door. I paused before reaching out to knock, as I could see that the door behind the heavy old-fashioned wooden blue painted screen door was open.

They must have heard my approach. Just then, the first dog flew through the unlatched screen door, throwing it open so hard it slammed against the house. I was surprised, but honed in on his barking mouth. He did not bare his teeth or foam at the mouth as he ran past me, rather than straight at me. In that split second, I figured I would be ok. Until… the second dog came barreling through the screen door at break-neck speed. I prepared for the worst. My entire body tensed, waiting for the bite. My arm? My leg? Would he jump at me to attack? Nope. He ran right past me, barking louder than his buddy.

At the same moment, his owner with a gray scraggly beard appeared at the door. Walking through the door, he gently placed his hand on my shoulder to calm me. (I am sure I looked petrified.)

His wife, not much taller than those big dogs, followed behind him and said, “The dogs won’t bite. They are friendly.”

I exhaled, forced a smile, said thank you, and handed her the bubble-padded envelope. She walked with me back to my car parked in the dirt driveway a fair distance from her front door. Her husband secured the dogs near the house.

I opened my car door and melted into my seat, finally able to breathe normally. I backed us down the driveway and out onto the road. The shaking and teary eyes could not be helped as my body was relieved of the tension and added adrenaline that was released in my “flight or fight” moment.

Those famous last words were playing over and over in my head, “Get a gun.” Meaning a stungun for protection from animals. If only I could remember the one recommended to me before I decided to start delivering with Amazon.

The positives from today were the beautiful fall weather, the view, not becoming lunch for those two dogs, and having my husband with me. Days like today make me feel like I want to travel.

Beautiful Colors

Turn That Frown Upside Down

This morning I woke up feeling depressed. It is a feeling like no other. I won’t go into details about how I felt, buy I am blessed to have a husband who cares enough to sit right there and listen to my unreasonable rantings.

My father died in January, but I feel I am just now truly mourning his death… and my mom’s sadness. The loss of a loved one who is such a “larger than life” type of personality really leaves a huge hole of emptiness in the lives of those left behind.

The medication I was taking for anxiety and depression made me feel “numb” to the loss of my dad. The benefit was that I could read the life sketch at my dad’s funeral without tears. People complemented me on how “strong” I was to do that without crying. I didn’t feel strong. I felt numb. I have made some choices since then, that I wonder if I would have made had I not been on that medication. Maybe. But, I can’t help but wonder. I made decisions that go against my values and who I am at my core.

So… three months ago I stopped taking the medication so I could feel “all the feels.” They are strong feelings. Mostly negative. There is an underlying sadness in my life most of the time, which, at times manifests as anger/irritation. I am definitely mourning my father’s loss. Among all of the things I miss, a couple of things really stand out. I miss his common-sense approach to life and his down-to-earth advice.

I also feel deep regret for the choices I made recently that are not representative of who I am. Feelings of regret are the worst. I keep asking myself WHY? Rebelliousness? Midlife crisis? Repressed mourning? Not sure, but regret adds to feelings of deep remorse, unworthiness, anger, frustration, depression, etc. “All the feels.”

So, anyway, this morning I woke up feeling deeply depressed. So, so, very sad. My husband encouraged me to go for a walk with him. After some prompting, I agreed and we went for a walk around the river’s edge. It was a beautiful warm summer morning. The walking and talking with my husband was a much needed distraction and very helpful in changing my feelings. I enjoy the outdoors and the beauty along the river. I have learned it is good to get moving when feeling down. The fresh air was fabulous! I took some pictures along the way. Enjoy!

This brought an immediate smile to my face and a curiosity to my mind. What were they discussing? What is their life’s story?
Enjoying the shade before crossing over the river to walk the other side.
If walls of old buildings could talk….
Smiles  > Frowns

Serendipity

Desert Mountain Sunset

Last night, Joe and I took a last-minute drive east of town. We captured this beautiful sunset over the Sawtooth mountains to the west. The narrow horizontal line in the middle of the image is the Snake River meandering through town, catching the reflection of the setting sun. I love moments like this!!

His Bark Was Bigger Than His Bite

Why do you blog?

I like to blog for the challenge of filling the blank canvas (screen) with a thought or two. Plus, I love seeing the words fill the page.

Back in 2010, I started a blog because my friend and I were walking and talking and laughing and I said that we should write down some of our funny experiences from our daily walks. As it turned out, she was funny when talking, but could not convert those same thoughts in writing. So, I blogged my own thoughts and experiences… which was not quite as funny as when we were together, but it was ok… except the story about our bikes and a dog…

One time, instead of walking, we decided to go for long (in our opinion) bike ride. Our ride took us over five miles on winding country roads, ending at a bridge over the fast flowing Snake River, a favorite place for fly fishing.

We were enjoying our ride along farmground, trees, and houses spread out beautifully along the way. My friend was riding a little ahead of me when suddenly there appeared a medium-sized barking dog that came shooting across the lawn from the house.

When this sort of thing happens, you find out really fast who your friends are. My friend left me in the dust! She was nothing but a blur… GONE! I peddled as fast as I could to catch up to her. She finally slowed her bike to a stop. I started laughing when I pulled my bike up behind her.  I said she must have learned that lesson about how to avoid being eaten by a bear.  You simply have to run faster than your friend! She and I laughed so hard!

She shared a story about a time, as a teenager, she went to knock on the door at her friend’s house and the friend’s very large dog came running around the corner straight at her. She felt trapped and so scared… so scared that she fainted right there on the doorstep! She has had a fear of dogs ever since that day.

Anyway, we made it safely to our destination and back home again.

Sharing stories is also another reason I like to blog. 😉

Morning!

What’s your favorite time of day?

Easy. Anyone who knows me very well knows I love mornings! The air is cool and crisp…well, not so crisp in the dog days of summer, but still cooler than midday in mid summer. 😎 

Mornings are when everything good happens, like the start of a trip,  a morning walk before breakfast, or….picture this….

A stay at the cabin on the 8th Crow Wing Lake in Northern Minnesota. It is early in the morning. You wake your family, grab your  lunch and fishing gear gathered the night before, and head from the cabin down to the lake.

The light is barely peaking through the cloudy sky. The steam is lifting from the lake, creating a misty appearance all around. The water is still and glass-like, the air so quiet that you can not avoid hearing the creeking sound of the wooden planks beneath the tip toes of your feet. The rocking as you step down inside the boat breaks the glassy appearance, forming the first mini waves across the water, and the quiet talking and laughter is an indication of a family fun day ahead.

Starting the motor cuts through the silence, deafening the tinkling of the lures dangling at the end of each fishing poles that are clanking while being secured for the chilly morning boat ride toward the perfect fishing spot near the lilly pads on the other side of the lake. (Because the lilly pads on this side of the lake are not good enough for fishing. One must always boat to the other side!) 😉

Crossing the misty lake, zipping my jacket all the way up, stretching the sleeves over to warm my hands, creating fresh wake behind the boat, I can’t help but smile a sleepy smile looking forward to a day of fishing with my family, each of us hoping to catch the first fish!

Yes! Morning is:  awaking to a fresh start, a new day, the beginning, the start of something great. It represents hope for good things to come. And if you are lucky, it starts with a beautiful sunrise!

My Back Yard

What do you love about where you live?

Bird’s Eye View of the Salt Lake Valley (Copyright 2024 by Chatterlei)

What I love about where I live is that it is my home town. All three of our children, their spouses, and our six grandchildren live in the same town. For as much as we get together because everyone’s lives are so busy, we might a well live in Timbuktu! Our little (growing) conservative town/city is a great place to raise a family.

We are only 3 hours away from a University hospital where my husband can have surgery on his leg, then lie in a hospital room to heal for a few days and enjoy bird’s eye views, as captured in the image above, taken through the window from his 6th-floor room.

From our home, within a couple of hours’ drive on a Saturday afternoon, we can be on a bench in Yellowstone National Park with other tourists watching in awe as Old Faithful reliably spews it’s steamy water up to 180 feet into the air. We can pick up a souvenir from the nearby shops and eat our packed lunch either in the car or at a picnic table in the area. Then enjoy a drive though the park on our way home, hoping to see buffalo, elk, deer, and maybe even a bear or two in their habitat.

In about the same amount of time, we can drive a different direction and sit at the still glasslike water’s edge of Jenny Lake which is tucked away at the base of the Teton Mountain Range. This is one of the area’s most beautiful and most visited sites. We are fortunate to have Yellowstone and the Tetons in our back yard, so to speak.

Taking a long day’s drive we can be at the Oregon Coast enjoying a cool walk along the beach listening to the waves crash along the shoreline. In the same amount of time, heading in a different direction, our drive could take us to San Diego where we can enjoy the warmth of sunshine and see the beautiful sunsets fade below the horizon of the ocean as it meets the sky in the distance.

I absolutely love the outdoors and I love to travel! Living near the Rockies to the East and not far from the Pacific Ocean to the West we can enjoy a variety of God’s most beautiful creations. These are some of the things I love about where we live.

Hobby? Too Much of a Good Thing? Or Escape From Reality?

Finding a geocache in the woods

Geocaching is something new to me that I only recently learned about. My daughter and son-in-law found one when out hiking an easy trail while out camping near a lake last year.

This week, a friend was talking about her husband and that he likes to hunt for geocaches. He has been involved with this hobby for many years. She expressed a bit of frustration when sharing with me that he is a top geocacher. He has found at least 50,000 geocaches! Fifty thousand! That is a lot of time spent outdoors searching for a small box with or without some tiny trinket or toy, as well as a pen or pencil and paper on which to leave a signature, as proof of his discovery.

The geocacher’s wife, said he walks with arm crutches. He has multiple cancers he is fighting. He has had all of the treatments available for his cancers. Now it’s a matter of time. Agent orange. Like covid, it is a thief.

Our patient worries about him out there searching for these geocaches. Alone. She wishes he would spend more time at home doing things that “matter.” I thought about all of the time effort and money he has spent on doing this hobby of searching for boxes with notepads where he has left his signature over 50 thousand times. My guess is, he has had some interesting moments out there by himself or with a buddy hiking in the outdoors, maybe appreciating God’s creations along the way. Journaling or blogging would have been a great place for him to share his ponderings and experiences.

I wonder if his wife ever went with him. I wonder if he every invited her to go along. They could have shared some wonderful moments of conversation, candid photos, and laughing together. Did I mention he is in his 70’s? I bet he has some great stories to tell.

Conference and Fall

The first Saturday and Sunday in October and April are my favorite weekends. They are when the fall and spring Conference Sessions for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints are broadcast. Yesterday, we spent the day watching conference with my Mom and Dad. Between the first and second sessions, we ate lunch together. The hotdogs were fried in a skillet, placed on a bun with ketchup, mustard, finely chopped onions, and topped off with sauerkraut. Deli salads are not my favorite, but we had a variety of sides to choose from – macaroni, red potato, and coleslaw – along with cottage cheese and cut strawberries, as well as a veggie tray.

After both sessions were over, we baked Pilsbury biscuits to go with my homemade potato soup for dinner. My soup never tastes the same as my mom’s, dad’s or paternal grandma’s. I like garlic flavor in mine, ½ and ½, potatoes, bacon, garlic, onion, celery, carrots, Better Than Bullion, chicken flavor, salt and pepper. Theirs is a simple flavor of canned cream, potatoes, bacon, onion, celery, salt, and pepper. It’s the canned cream. It makes all the difference.

Sitting there in the house where I grew up, eating dinner with my husband and elderly parents, I realized that every day spent with my parents is a gift. My dad seems old. He is still sharp, but the edge is dulling a bit. All of the medications that are used to “help him” feel his best, I suspect, are affecting his quick thinking. The meds have not affected his desire and ability to talk…and talk…and talk…and spend quality time with his family, however. I am grateful for him and my mom and the days we get to spend together.

Today, I thought my husband and I would spend a quiet Sunday at home listening to Conference. My husband had a moment of spontaneity, though, and said he wanted to go for a drive somewhere today. He didn’t care where. He just wanted to go for a ride together. It was a cloudy, cool fall day, a great day for a drive. I planned a route that would take us on a 5-hour loop through several small towns in Wyoming, and loop us through older towns in the southern part of east Idaho.

Starting out later than anticipated, mid-morning, with my husband’s metal detector in hand and jackets on, we decided to go a different route, including what was supposed to be a 30-minute side trip to the old pioneer townsite of Chesterfield, Idaho, which was settled in 1881. It is a ghost town now.

After waiting for about 45 minutes for the stopped train to move past the railroad crossing over the road in Bancroft – the only way to our destination – we arrived at one of the buildings where visitors often meet prior to touring the old townsite of an old mercantile, “gas station” and homes of the settlers. Today, the visitor’s building was closed.

In front of the meeting house, my husband found an old square-head nail and a couple of bent screws. It was clear to us how well-made the old nail was compared to the more modern screws. While we were searching for potential “treasures,” the dark clouds in the distance, the thunder rumbling through the air, and the cold wind picking up urged us to stop looking. We returned to the pickup, turned up the heater, and headed back the direction from which we came.

My husband said he had a wonderful day and wondered if I enjoyed my time riding and enjoying the scenery to which I affirmed. The drive was relaxing. The changing colors of the trees amidst the evergreens were breathtakingly beautiful. Autumn has arrived. Listening to the uplifting words of our prophet and apostles was comforting. It was a wonderful day! Fall has always been my favorite season!

This photo says Idaho!!
A red bed of trees
Storm clouds in Chesterfield, ID
Autumn in Idaho

Ahhh…. Grrr

Exiting the chilled temperature of the PT Department, the warmth hit my face like the heat escaping an oven through the opened oven door.

The wind is blowing through the shrubs and trees. Leaves, rustling in the warm breeze, is the only sound I could hear as I sat down at the round metal grate table.

I was enjoying this moment of peaceful beauty when suddenly, breaking through the quiet solitude from the next table over, was the sound of my co-worker’s cell phone blaring a comedy show!! Really?!

As I was walking up the stairs to leave my invaded sanctuary, I took a call from my husband. We talked while I walked. I vented to him about my first world issue. He shared with me the good news from his urologist that he is healing well post-operatively. He should not have any more prostate problems. If he does, he knows who to call.

I’m feeling better already. A short walk and talk was all I needed. Do you ever have moments like that?

Park Bench

Something about a park bench

There is something about a park bench outdoors that can change a “down-in-the-dumps” kind of feeling to a feeling of appreciation for sunshine, blue sky, and a cool breeze. What a great smile!

Community Park is a great place to walk. Some of the people we saw this morning were young moms and dads pushing babies in strollers, two boys on bicycles racing down the hill, couples walking for exercise, and a young lady out walking three dogs together. Dog walker, maybe?

There is a place on one end of the park where a grove of aspen trees was planted several years ago. It is my favorite part of the park. It is a peaceful and quiet place to sit and ponder. Aspens trees are some of my favorites!